Losing Your Mind

Do you ever struggle with not living up to the person you have created in your own mind? I am going to use myself as an example because maybe I’m the only weird one who struggles with this. I’m 35 years old and I continue to struggle to live up to my own expectations. I am constantly overthinking my life and trying to be “good enough” for myself and others. honestly, I’m getting too old for this y’all. I have set certain standards for myself and when I fall short, I fall HARD. I fall into the trap of self-pity, shame, guilt, condemnation, and so many other things. Then I start thinking everyone sees me like this and my mind just goes into a chaotic cycle that sometimes takes days to overcome. God help the people that are the closest to me because I can be ALOT to handle when I’m in this downward cycle. I’m tired of struggling with this “person” who does not even exist. She is someone that I have held so high in my mind that she has become my God. She has become my own worst enemy. You see guys, if you are like me and struggle with this, we are SO WRONG. The only person we should be trying to please is God. Not our-self. Only God can tell us who we are and who we should be. He created us and has a purpose and plan for our life and only through him can we live that out. Let’s stop trying to be who we think we should be and be who God has called us to be. Our mind is a dangerous place and that is where the root of sin starts. This is where we start becoming our own God and that my dear friend is a sin. I’m guilty of this. God clearly states we should not have any other God before him (Exodus 20:3.) We live in a society today that is so vain and self-focused, and it makes us feel okay to be this way. We are becoming desensitized to God’s commands and his spirit and we are becoming apart of this world. We have been commanded to be separated unto him. To forsake this world and follow Christ. Being able to do this takes putting off that old man and putting on the mind of Christ. We literally have to “Lose our Mind”. This, my friend, is a daily task. We have years of conditioning our mind to think carnal and vain thoughts, but the grace and mercies of God are new every day and he will help you to start thinking differently. Stop listening to the lies we tell ourselves. Stop putting yourself down when you stumble. Stop trying to get approval from others and start living to please God. His approval is all that matters. Please don’t forget this.  God loves you where you are. He is for you even when you are not for yourself. You are created in his image. Let that be your truth today. I want to give you guys a list of scriptures to start speaking out loud when you start hearing lies.

  • And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what [is] that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God. Romans 12:2 
  • For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them. Ephesians 2:10 
  • Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. Colossians 3:2  
  • Jesus replied: ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ Matthew 22:37
  • For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you. Romans 12:3 
  • Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus: Who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God: Ephesians 2:5-6

Finding You

Hello Friends.

I know my blogs are few, far and in between, but that is just my life right now. I’m in a process. I have not yet figured out what that process is yet, but maybe one day I will. It’s a hot mess, ugly, lonely, hard, and times painful. But we can’t get caught up in our emotions and how we feel. We must believe and move forward. How do we do that? Well… I’m glad you asked because I think I might have the answer. First, let me tell you how God reminded me of this knowledge. I was singing in the choir yesterday at church and my mind was anywhere but at church. My mind was in the What if’s, what now’s, and how in the worlds. I’m not sure about you but my mind never shuts off. In this case, it was a good thing because my mind kept thinking the word “Identity”. I started thinking about my identity. Here are a few words that came to my mind: Mom, grandma, friend, daughter, broken, hurting, worthless, lonely, SINGLE MOM, divorced, hot mess, not good enough, etc.…  my mind is a scary place, so I won’t share everything with you, I want you to finish reading this. At that moment I heard God say, “you will never know you if you don’t know me”. You see, I grew up in the church. I am a woman who loves the Lord and wants so desperately to please him, walk with him, and fulfill his purpose in my life. Just because I am a woman after Gods own heart does not mean I don’t struggle. Sometimes I forget who I am. I allow my past or people, or circumstances to dictate my identity. Crazy, huh? So many people think that we should have it all together but Whatever to those people. I do not, I repeat DO NOT have it all together. But the Man I’m running after does. We must diligently search after God, read his word, seek out our salvation in him, not in us or others. BUT IN HIS WORD. After all, we are created in his image and that is where we will find our identity. Just like Peter, Paul, Mary, and so many others who we read about in the bible. These people’s lives were broken before Jesus, but when they started following him they found their purpose. Our identity will not be found in a relationship, in a bottle, in a new outfit, in a church, in a choir, in a job, in our FAMILIES, but only in our Creator. He knows us better than anyone, in such an intimate way. He is calling us to know him in that very same way. If you are struggling with anything, please open his word and get to know God. There is power in that knowing. A power that will help us get through the valleys. Fight the struggles of the world and overcome every lie that the enemy and our mind tell us. Knowing God will save your life. It is definitely saving mine. 

With so much love,

Misty Brooke

Beautifully Broken

Hello Friends,

It’s been a minute since I have posted anything. I honestly have felt a little desolate for the past year and a half. I really didn’t have much to say. A lot has changed in my life. A lot of hurt, brokenness, and absolute heart-wrenching moments have happened. I felt lost. Wandering in the wilderness with no direction. Those of you that know me have seen the life I have lived for the past 16 years. A life of addiction and a life of restoration. 10 years ago, I turned from a lifestyle of complete darkness. I was a weak woman with no self-worth and felt completely unlovable. I allowed myself to go so deep into a dark hole I never thought anyone could find me there. BUT GOD. When I decided to turn back to him my life was by no means easy. But as a wise man once said to me ” The best day in my sin does not compare to the hardest day with God” I have had some hard days but having the strength of God makes it a lot easier to get through. It makes it possible. I want to be completely transparent with you. I was married for 16 years. Now I’m divorced. Divorced was the last place I thought I would be. I tried so hard to be the woman God intended me to be. I tried so hard to write the wrongs that I did in my past. I tried so hard to be the best wife for my husband. The best mom to my sons. I changed everything about myself. The way I spoke, the way I dressed, the music I listened to, the company I surrounded myself with. I was all in. I was what some people would call a holy roller Jesus freak. I just knew I wanted to be so different than the person I was. So, when my husband asked me for a divorce I didn’t understand. I was doing everything right. I prayed, I went to church every Sunday, I was the worship leader. I went to bible study,  I was 100% committed. The reason I’m sharing all of this is that I have felt more broken in the past two years than I have ever felt. I feel like for a moment I stopped living, believing, trusting. I felt so far from God. So far from everyone. I isolated myself because I didn’t know how to handle everything. It was so heavy. The burden I felt at times was overwhelming. I was a mess inside. The chaotic emotions that I felt every day slowly started ruling my life. The sadness controlled me. The fear paralyzed me. And each day pieces of me kept breaking away. I was damaged. When I looked in the mirror I didn’t even recognize the person staring back at me. I had no joy. I allowed everything bad to dictate my future. I stopped trusting God and started only trusting myself. Trusting my feelings. I was determined to never allow my heart to feel again. Thank God for his love. He refused once again to leave me where I was. I’m so glad he didn’t. With the help of Him and great friends and family, I’m slowly but surely making my way back. I’m still scared to death on some days and completely crazy on other days, but God is moving and strengthing me through this season. He is healing me. My emotions. My mind. My heart. He is a gentle God and so patient. He refuses to give up on me even when I want to give up on myself. He reminds me that I am broken, but beautifully broken in his hands. I am currently in the potter’s hands being molded into something new, something beautiful. I encourage you that when life gets tough when the unplanned happens when you’re walking in uncertainty, when you are scared to death, don’t pull away from God. Go through the mess with him. Let him guide you. He is the only light that will shine in the darkness. He wants to be there for us like any good father is there for their child. We need him desperately in those times. No matter how broken you are, he is there to put the pieces back together. It may look completely different than before, but my gosh it is so much more beautiful.

Love you all.

~Misty Brooke

Happy Saturday Friends! It’s been a while. Hope this week has treated you well. I am always blessed but this week has been quite the challenge. I was looking through some of my old writings and came across this one that I had written almost two years ago. I never knew how much I would need this today, but the Lord did. I love how he goes before us and just shows how AWESOME he truly is!

There are times in our life where we might feel so far from The Lord, wondering where he is. And then there are times where we just separate our self from him. We might build walls, hide our self away from what can hurt us! I have been there many times. You just lose all hope, get tired and want to give up. I might go to church every Sunday, lead worship, go to Sunday school and have an awesome time but as soon as you leave all these emotions, feelings, fears and anxieties try and take hold of you. Let me encourage you today that these are Just feelings!!!! They are all LIES!  God is wanting us to know he is bigger! He wants us to be directly connected to him. No walls. No Boundaries! He is wanting to do a work in you. He loves us. Do you believe that? GOD LOVES YOU!!!! That is the TRUTH! No enemy in hell can take that from you. His love saw you in your mess and pulled you out. His love saw someone who was broken and made them whole! His love saw a hopeless person and filled them with his spirit and faith. His love saw us when we were unlovable and loved us! So today allow the lord to lead you back to him. Let him break down your walls of lies and deception, a kingdom without TRUTH… Without HIM! Let him tear down every lie that you have believed. Every doubt and fear. Cast those lies into hell!!! Tear down the stronghold! WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!!! Do you believe that? Today speak life into your life, your families life, into others life. Share Gods word, his truth, and his love! Gods way is the only way. There is only one path that leads to redemption, truth, and love and that is the path of Christ! So if you find yourself off that path, just turn around because The Lord is waiting for you. To lead you back to him!!!

John 14:6

Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.


Love you all

~ Misty Brooke

His story in my life

Its been a while friends so I wanted to share what the Lord has been speaking to me. My life right now is anything but perfect. The whole reason for this blog is to tell you Gods story in my life. Who he has been in my life when I was so undeserving. God is so faithful and his grace is unfailing. Only by him am I here. When this world thought it had me… My God did not let go. When drugs tried to keep me…. My God did not let go. When shame tries to steal my joy… God reminds me of who i am in him. God is wanting us to see and realize who he is, and who we are when we walk with him. If you are struggling with getting back up after a huge fall, if you feel like you have gone to far from his reach, or if you are just having a hard time, let me tell you God is near and he is calling you to be his. We only have life in him. The enemy tries to fill us with lies and deceive us into believing them. It’s time you set him in his place. .The word tells us to “Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour”. DO NOT LET IT BE YOU! Rise up, get up, and turn back to your first love, Jesus! God is wanting to do something special in you, in me. Invite the Lord to be on this journey with you. There is no better way. When I turned back to God 8 years ago it was the best decision I have ever made.I realized how much I needed him. I realized who I was in Christ.Was my life automatically perfect ?…ummm sorry,  but it was not. I had to deal with the consequences of my actions, but i heard a preacher say once…. “My worse day as a christian is still better than my best days in sin”. He is restoring me day by day. I keep looking forward and refuse to look back. Some days are better than others but I know Gods plan will prevail. He is a Good God and his mercy endures forever. His love never fails and will never let you go! I will leave you with this scripture and song.

With Love

~ MistyBrooke

7 Encouraging Bible Verses About God’s Strength

It is well with my soul.

God is good. His ways are not my ways and his thoughts are not my thoughts. Thank God. Thank God things do not work out the way we think they should, the way we had planned. That is half of our problem. If things don’t go according to OUR plan we become hopeless, our faith becomes weak and we begin to question God. I said when I first started this blog that i am on a journey, in a transition and trust me my faith has been weakened, my hope has been weary some days, but God is teaching me so much through it. He is teaching me to trust him. To be OK where i am. He is using this very moment to show me who he is. Guys i don’t know about you but i need him. Every minute, every breath, I NEED HIM!!! I am choosing to TRUST him with every part of my being. He holds my fears, my worries, my brokenness, my hurts, my struggles, my questions, my uncertainties, and he is making something so beautiful out of it. I might not see it right now, but i know God has my best interest. Are you waiting for something, are you praying for your marriage to be restored, for a person you love to come back to Christ, a loved one who is fighting addiction, KEEP praying. Don’t quit. God hears, he sees your tears, he sees your pain and he is working it out. Not in our way, not in our time but in his perfect time and perfect way. 1 Samuel 1&2. Hannah prayed so hard for a son. It took her years to see this prayer get answered but she kept going back to the house of God until it happened. I’m sure she became weary, grieved and even angry at some point but she did not QUIT. She kept trusting and it happened. Right on time. God knows. and that is enough. My friend i pray for your faith to not fail. A break through is coming. Hold on to the promises of God. He has not forgotten you. I will always leave you with a song. I hope you enjoy it.

Galatians 6:9

And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.

With Love

~Misty Brooke

 

Seasons change….But HE does not!

Not a very long blog today, just wanted to encourage those of you who follow. I am at a season in my life where, well I’m not sure what season it is. (Kinda like this GA weather). I am experiencing so much change right now. The Lord has me in this place of transition  and at times it feels completely uncomfortable, scary,  and honestly I just don’t understand it, but he has offered me so much peace, grace, and so much Love. No matter what season we are in, God is constant y’all. He does not change. His Love never waivers, never fails. He has something so special to give to us in each season, in each transition of our life. We just have to walk with him and trust him. It’s hard..I know ,but he has not failed me yet. Below is a link to a song I wanted to share. Remember tonight as you are getting ready for bed, though the seasons change the God we serve does not. His Love remains through every trial, every hurt and every season.

With Love

~Misty Brooke

Where I am, and Where I am going…

I have been wanting to start a blog for quite some time, but I always felt as if I’d have to be in a better place in my life in order to say something. Well, if I wait for that to happen I will always remain silent! Truth is, I am on a journey. MY journey! It’s unique, set apart, and laid out for me by the Lord. When I compare my life to everyone around me I always fall short. I question: Where am I, Where I’m going, WHO I AM, and am I good enough? I know I’m not the only one. If we are honest with ourselves, most feel the same. Which brings me to here. To you. Where you will hear my experiences, how they’ve affected me, and where they’ve taken me. Keeping silent about it seems almost like a waste. Through Christ we are capable of so many things and not telling you that just does not seem right. We overcome by the WORD of our testimony. So I am here to tell you HIS story, through my eyes. It might not always be picture perfect.. Who am I kidding it will NEVER be picture perfect, but the one who is walking with me is.

With Love,

~Misty Brooke

Isaiah 43:2

When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee.

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